brain fog/dissociation so bad that i can’t remember anything. I somewhat got this disorder from a relationship and i cant recall almost anything that happened in it. It’s like theres a blockage not letting me access my memories.
always feeling bad one way or another: body stiffness, impending doom, brain fog, depression, anxiety etc etc.
feeling like i myself am the abuser. Not in that i was abusive but i mimick the person that abused me to the extent that i feel like i am that person
feeling like im always being whatched, like i am infront of somebody putting on an act even though im alone
feeling an invisible connection with the abuser, and having really hard time understanding that we well never meet again. Like i modified my whole soul to be with you and now although you’re gone im still stuck in that state.
suddenly feeling that everyones against me, even the people i once trusted the most.
