I am ashamed

I watched a movie, just relaxing. Went up to the bathroom and see my whole face covered in blood, drips out of the spots on my face.

I dont remember picking at all, but this stresses me out a lot and makes the urges to pick rise up again. Everything is sore and red and i don't know what to do. It's so frustrating.

Don't really want to cover it with concealer or anything, i feel like that makes it worse.