I'm embarrassed to have to ask but...

I may have posted about this before. I had this strange fascination(which turned to obsession, then finally lust/fetish) for years with the idea of gender transformation, basically a man physically transforming into a woman or vice versa. Now it's rearing it's ugly head yet again with this idea of "it can just be a fascination/way of writing stories to yourself, just like the old days!"

I'm not going to sugarcoat it:Kill it. Bring up any Bible passages, whatever you want to tear this down. I'm done with this and don't want to fall for it ever again. Too much pain, mental and spiritual over this. I keep getting thoughts like "maybe it's not inherently wrong, and I just need to not lust?"

I do plan on taking accountability for the temptation and finding new habits to replace it, but regardless I leave it to you to do whatever you wish to it.