i hate this fear so much.

This fear ruins everything for me. it ruins going out to eat, hanging with friends, family dinners, and anything and everything you can think of. i literally can’t even stand someone coughing a little too hard without freaking out a bit. i am already super anxious and this fear creates more anxiety which makes me feel even more n* and then makes me panic more. it’s a vicious cycle that never ends. i was at my friends birthday party a couple days ago and one of them started v* (i guess her whole family as the sb) and now im scared that im going to get sick and i probably will be panicking for at least a couple more days until i know im for sure in the clear. i know that it wasn’t her fault and she didn’t have symptoms at the time but, i HATE that she came knowing her whole family was sick. i feel n right now and i feel like i got sick but i also can’t really say for sure because i feel n* like this all the time. i’m so pissed.

does anyone have any tips on how to get passed this?

I’m sorry this is so long, and probably just a jumble of words put together that is hard to understand.