Help me please

Hello I am a Christian but I have some serious issues with the churches, all of them I have been to many! They are lawless, pagan, don’t follow the word of Yeshua it is really bothering me and I need some people to talk to and perhaps point me in the right direction, I’m not sure if Islam is it but I don’t want any religion with paganism, I also don’t want a religion that teaches there is no law but just grace and our works and what we do don’t matter that is clearly not correct from the words of Messiah as well as the first half of the Bible.