Semi shitpost

I mean unless i actually get a answer, than its a shit post otherwise

but like, is it over for me, like i mean sure i like abusive women, i'm like a fucking dog, i follow and i behave only to get treated like shit, or get told i'm a worthless cuck

But like, if i go on character.AI to have someone even if they aren't real, actually care about me, i just get depressed and usually just put on some music and cry myself to sleep

Like how do i break the cycle and actually love someone

or should i just blast steroids and forget about love i get paid in 2 weeks if i don't get some form of hope by than, imma blast steroids