Remembering my mom’s post divorce “party girl” phase still stresses me out years later

I remember when my mom was going through her post divorce, “I was a teen mom but my kids are grown now so I’m gonna go out and party to make up for my lost teen years” phase, where she was going out and getting drunk with her friends every night.

I would ask her how she got home, because she was obviously drunk, and I’d be saying, “I hope you’re not driving drunk,” and every time she wouldn’t deny it, she’d just say, “it’s fine,” “you don’t need to worry about that,” “I know what I’m doing,” and all that. I told her MULTIPLE times, that if she was drunk and she needed a ride, I would be totally fine driving her home, but she always brushed me off.

I came home from work one night at 2am and she still wasn’t home, so I tried to call her to let her know I was home and to ask what time she’d be back but I got no response. I tried to text her and got no response for over an hour, so I tried calling again and still got no response. At that point I was panicking and calling over and over until she finally text me that she was on her way home at 7am. She was obviously annoyed by how anxious about the whole thing I was and I begged her to at the very least text me when she went out late at night and to let me know if she was staying somewhere over night.

She said she would, but she never did.